Started on my iPhone while watching Sabrina the Teenage Witch for the second time. It's about 4:30 pm on December 1. Finished…December 8.
It’s been an interesting seven days.
First, context. My practice for the past 10 years or so has been to take a holiday shortly after my birthday which is December 10. I find the solitude of what is usually a beachfront escape a solid kickstart to turning it down, shutting it off, and transitioning into a period of respite and self care that lasts through January which we refer to as ‘Wintering’.
This is the second year in a row, however, my body has grounded me prior to Wintering. Extended rest was COMING and yet my body said, “not soon enough”. Last year my mobility was impacted. I could not stand up straight or walk with ease for a few weeks. This year it is my vision. Each was sudden and acute.
Not life changing but as I reflect and write this life affirming and demanding.
Besides year end escapes canceled, both led to the realization and acceptance that my body carries the weight of past and present, mine and that of my ancestors. How I move through and am received in this world wears and tears, literally - two retinal tears appeared in my left eye over the course of 24 hours while walking resulting in emergency surgery three days later.
I was aware that my mind and heart were working over time to continue to show up with a spirit of care, compassion, forgiveness, gratitude and grace. As a result, I was already pondering what else would nourish and heal throughout the year in addition to Wintering which is an opportunity to rest and refuel in a way that aligns with the seasons in this hemisphere.
As I prepare for this next phase of my life and how I wish to be in this work and world clearly something different is required.