I’ve been awake for a while in the pre-dawn hours.
Taking deeper breaths which bubble through my body creating more space, energy and calm.
In 2016, part of me shut down and turned off. While another part of me imagined, invited and reached for a future markedly different from what was unfolding.
There is a tension in this internal duality - a bifurcated existence. I find myself swinging from expansive expressions of acceptance, possibility and love to a dissociative state. It is not sustainable.
My heart is tired.
I welcome grief as a constant companion. She shows up in different ways and at different times. We are getting to know each other as friends navigating the moments of the day, the night and that which falls in-between.
My heart wants to be whole and full again.
